Why?! Our hearts are broken. We are holding Kelly and Madeline close in our hearts, wishing for time to see them and hug them and be with them.
Grief and anger exist together in a tangled mess so many times. This tangled mess could very well be the reason this "senseless" violence broke out to begin with—what were the members of this gang grieving?
And, yes, I am angry with God. Very angry. My private conversations with God over the last 48 hours have been filled with angry tears and demands to know, to understand.
Yet, as I have moved with my grief, the question has shifted. Shifted to how.
How, God, am I to be with this? I have faith that Wesley is in a better place right now, is resting and healing in the light of God. Yet, his family – a young daughter and his beloved wife – are HERE without him.